Forever Love

11 December 2009

I know I don't have much time if I have to confess. I have to go back to NZ in less then 2 months time. I have thought of making a card with everything I want to say in it and have it accompany the rings. Although there wasn't much time for such impromptu idea, I wanted to make it happen. Throughout the week right after the meeting, other than work, my mind just kept thinking of the ideas. Today, right after work, I rushed back home to buy the things I need for the card with the help of my friend, Theng.

It was almost 11pm when I started to make it. I don't wanna bring it back home to do it as I didn't not want my family to know about this. This is obviously so not me. However, I did, as it was late and I can't find a place to to it.

I didn't sleep much because I planned to give her this the next day. I was kinda nervous while making it as I couldn't imagine the moment she saw this. On the other hand, I felt very happy to be able to make something for someone I love with my own hands.

12 December 2009

Guess what? Ta-da! I made it just in time!

A pair of rings in the heart, A rose and a word "Forever"
is exactly what I want to express to that beautiful young lady.

I know it looks rather crude, but if I was given much time I could have done it way better. Yet, my mum and sis said it'll definitely be a "yes". However, whatever the consequence turn out to be, at least I've done whatever I can. No regrets.

Casley's blog about this here.

Unexpected Romance

05 December 2009

PC fair! Haha! Another good opportunity for excuses. We went there quite late and just have an hour or two to browse through the whole fair. Of course it's not a concern for me as that's not my sole purpose. Hehehe.

After that we sat at the park for very very long doing nothing but just chatting beside the fountain and enjoying the well decorated night view of the city and twin tower. Though there are a lot of people in the park as well but somehow I've totally ignored them. At that moment, she was the only person in my sight. Being able to be with her alone doing nothing is, for me, the simplest form of romance. What actually spiced up the moment was when we took the following photos.

It was my first time doing that with a girl. Feel kinda awkward but extremely happy and unbelieveable!

Now lets have a little flash back of what happened before this....

I've actually asked my friend, Shiang, about how to confess to a girl as I'm not good and totally green at all this things. So he said, bring her out for dinner at a romantically lighted and decorated restaurant. Then take her to a beautiful but quiet place where we can talk properly. That's when I can pass her my "little present" of confession.

Come back.....

When I took out my phone in the pocket, I realised that the rings that I bought are with me. I started to think if I should confess then, because that is exactly the moment that Shiang described. Time flew by as I kept thinking of this. The park was about to close. Eventually I decided: "not now". Firstly I was not prepared. I would have to say something if I just pass her those rings. Obviously I don't know what to say. Secondly, I think that just passing her the rings is lack of sincerity. I need something more....

Before I send her home, I suggested that we should go have something because I was hungry. And you know what is the other reason behind this. Hahahaha.... After that I sent her back home very late in the night. I went back home and with those moments and photos kept playing in my mind, grinning, I fell into a tight sleep.

Casley's blog about this day is here.

Reminiscence - Part 4 ---- The Very First Approach ----

S.M. Chong Hwa - Secondary school
The first day of class, it's such a co-incident or should I say faith and fate that both of us are ordered to sit side by side in the classroom. And... yup. That's when she started to get my attention.

03 July 1991

It was her birthday. I really wanted to give her something as a present but I didnt have my pocket money from my parents back then and I was so shy to get money from them with such reason. Instead, I just passed her a mechanical pencil that my brother picked up somewhere else with a simple wish at the end of the day. What is worse is that the mechanical pencil uses 0.7 lead which is a really rare "species".
-- This paragraph of story is what she told me. I've totally forgotten about it. If such story is true, then that pencil will be the very first present I ever give to other people. But was I that stingy??!!

Notice the stickers she sticked on the pen.

She never get to use it yet she keep it until now. I'm so touched and feel sorry for her when I knew about this. (I promise myself from now on that I will give her the best I can when I can.)

It's very true when people said that you won't appreciate what is before your eyes until you lose it. I never knew about my feeling until form 2 that we were eventually in seperate classes after 7 years. Since then, I lost my guts to talk to her and we didnt have any proper rendezvous as she, as well, has the same feeling to me (since when? ask her). I still remember that me and my best friend kind of stalked her and came out with all sorts of stupid ideas on how to get a chance to talk to her. Here's 1 of them...

My friend, who was a delinquent back then, will asked some of his friends (of the same kind) to wait her and tease her during the recess time at a corridor where it's always dark and desserted. We knew she'll walked through the corridor everyday to her class. Then, here I'll be a hero to save her. Through this, I thought I would be able to get her attention or at least a chance to talk to her which is more than enough.

Childish but quite practical. We actually planned through this in detail - gather the boys, conversation, and time were set. However, we didn't execute it again because of my guts.

Then, 1 girl, " girl A" appeared to offer help for both of us. Girl A was a good friend of mine and, with 2 other girls they were very close friends with her as well. However girl A has a crush on me (and I didn't know about this). She pretended to be very friendly and helpful by passing on messages. No one knew she actually passed on the false one all the while. At the end of form 2, both of us (me and Casley) found out that we hated each other but in reality we still like each other. She told me that Casley knew I was stalking her and with all the rumours about me liking her, she was really mad at me.

I was really sad when I knew about it but....

Promise

11th December 2010

I was thinking of how to confess for quite awhile. After a careful thought I knew I won't have the guts to say it out when she's in front of me, so I decided to buy a present and attach it with a letter with all the messages written in it. But what present best suits such circumstance?


Yup it definitely must be this, and this particular pair of rings. Well, for me, rings (those used for engagement or marriage, not accessory) symbolise promise. With the words "Forever Love" on them and after customised them by carving our names on it, it'll be the perfect gift that not only suits such occasion but also 1 that clearly carries all my messages.

If you still can't read in between the lines, here, let me tell you. I saw, long ago, this girl's perspective in love resembles that of mine. On the other hand, I have seen her suffered more than enough through her past experience. Hence, I hope I can provide her the love and happiness that she deserves. A promise, as I was taught since young, can never be broken. I am no God but a simple man who hope to fulfill her wish for eternal love and infinite care.

Or Lame Excuses?

29 November 2009

And here I come again... This time with a lamer excuses in order to see her. I asked her if she wants to come over my house to use the internet for her blog and FFS. I knew that is lame but the one who accepts it must be desperate. To my great surprise and joy, she agreed!

Here is it. (from left) Casley's laptop, mine and then my bro's desktop.

I gave her one Whittaker's chocolate bar from NZ.

Casley's blog about this here.

4 December 2009

I called her up during the traffic jam on the way back from work. I couldn't think of anymore excuses. Haha. But while we were chatting, she told me that her parents were out and she and her sis will have to make their own dinner - OPPORTUNITY. Hehe.

I really wanted to invite her out for dinner but my mum already cooked mine. So I will just have to get a takeaway for her. Meeting up with her for just a few seconds is better than nothing. At least we interacted. And this time another appalling discovery - (ok, only if you are staying in Setapak or somewhere nearby) she never tries the famous hokkien noodles at the back of Tawakal Hospital! (The back street?! Sounds like a doggy place but I guarantee you that it's legit.) Alright this is not as shocking as Ramly burger but still she'd been staying here since she was born! Even people faraway knows about this.

Ta-da... The famous hokkien noodle I mentioned. Originated (I heard that) from KL (not Fujian, China though it's called "hokkien" noodle) and only available in some part of Malaysia. Definitely a delicacy for tourists.

The fried rice. With the intense fire where we couldn't get with household stoves, it manages to seperate every single rice but not drying it up and with eggs sticking at the side of the rice but not merging. Simply delicious, and a must-try.

One of the sides - fish cake. Crispy outer layer wrapping around the tender and juicy meat. Just look at it will make you drool...

Of course there are a lot more choices you can order. For non local, here's the details of the place:
Along Jalan Pahang, Setapak, you will see the Tawakal Hospital after a petrol station. Turn left into the street right after the hospital and keep going straight. The stall will be right in front of you.

Casley's blog about this here.

White Excuses?

28th November 2009

I asked her if she wants to come along for my company to buy my working clothes. To increase the probability of she saying yes, I added that she can bring her laptop along to a cafe in the mall so she can online there and play her FFS. I knew she was crazy with it and the P1 in her house doesn't work. =P Although I don't know much about FFS, it's just one excuse so I can hang out with her, alone again. Haha.

She was happily playing FFS ....

... while I was bored. I never had such a patience waiting for someone. First picture, I was staring into the blank... around 30 minutes later calling for help. (Look carefully at my expression)

Really love this photos taken while trying out in the fitting room.

1st time doing this - self-photographing. Also 1st time being so close with a girl other than my sis and my mum. This is also the day that I found out that she's such a camwhore when I looked through her phone.

In the night while sending her back home, I suggested a supper again. The reason's the same - just wanted to buy some time with her. We had Ramly burger. For me it is definitely the tastiest burger you can ever get. Besides, it's cheaper, the portion is bigger compare to the 1 you get in fast food restaurants, and also you can customise your own burger to whatever you want!

The famous Ramly burger stall in Malaysia - beside the road (Haha) but they have tried to improve the hygene due to the increasing demand.

But guess what I discovered? It's her FIRST time having Ramly bueger!!! WTF??!! Man! If I don't know her since young, I'll probably think she's from other country or perhaps other planet and just arrived here. You never been to Malaysia until you try out Ramly burger. Hehe.

Casley's blog about this here.

First Outing

26th of November 2009

This is not the first, but the second time I hung out with her alone, all thanks to Shiang and Theng. Hehe. Initially I invited them to watch the movie "2012" but they couldn't make it. Though they rejected me, I'm grateful as this outing give me a chance to create more opportunities to be with her alone later on.

I really worried that I'll freak out or bored her up as I never actually hang out with a girl alone, not with a "purpose" or "plan" behind it. Fortunately I didn't. All the while, I kept reminding myself that we are just good friends. Not easy to do that but I did it with patience and hopefully I've cheered up her day.

I even dressed up very normally - the first step to calm myself down.
I really miss piano back in NZ.

The first thing we found in common - we like tea eggs!

Oh yeah! The boys are back! I grew up with this cartoon and my brother is named after him - Alvin. Amazingly their characters (good at tackling girls, naughty, sociable...) are almost alike! Yet i refuse to get the name Simon (sorry but it just sounds gay). This time they are back in pairs. Is it implying something??

January 2008. An unforgettable outing before I came to NZ. We watched Alvin and the Chipmunks 1. Such a co-incident that this time when I came back, the 2nd movie is coming out.

A supper as an excuse to stay together with her longer. We pranked Zhen Hou and I was very excited abt the next day when I'll be going back to Wushu and give a surprise to my senior.

So, how abt the 1st time? Well, it's really a looooong story and let's reflect back (I don't really want to do that but I'll do it for the sake of completing the story) what has actually happened in the post titled "Reminiscence"......

Casley's blog about this here.